You should not be surprised at whatever you see or hear...If you are ready to accept things as they are$$$ you will receive them as old friends.
It will take quite a long time before you find your calm$$$ serene mind in your practice.
When you do things in the right way$$$ at the right time$$$ everything else will be organized.
But the purpose of studying Buddhism is to study ourselves and to forget ourselves. When we forget ourselves$$$ we actually are the true activity of the big existence$$$ or reality itself.
We can say either that we make progress little by little$$$ or that we do not even expect to make progress. Just to be sincere and make our full effort in each moment is enough.
Whether you have a problem in your life or not depends upon your own attitude$$$ your own understanding.
So even though you have some difficulty in your practice$$$ even though you have some waves while you are sitting$$$ those waves themselves will help you.
When the restrictions you have do not limit you$$$ this is what we mean by practice.
Time goes from present to past.
When something dies is the greatest teaching.