I felt loss at every hand. The loss of self-esteem is a celebrated symptom$$$ and my own sense of self had all but disappeared$$$ along with any self-reliance. This loss can quickly degenerate into dependence$$$ and from dependence into infantile dread. O

I felt loss at every hand. The loss of self-esteem is a celebrated symptom$$$ and my own sense of self had all but disappeared$$$ along with any self-reliance. This loss can quickly degenerate into dependence$$$ and from dependence into infantile dread. One dreads the loss of all things$$$ all people close and dear. There is an acute fear of abandonment.