Is there any of the usual social occasions which it is not difficult to avoid? But if you decide that you cannot very well ignore your worldly obligations$$$ and that you will therefore carry them out properly$$$ the demands on your time will multiply$$$

Is there any of the usual social occasions which it is not difficult to avoid? But if you decide that you cannot very well ignore your worldly obligations$$$ and that you will therefore carry them out properly$$$ the demands on your time will multiply$$$ bringing physical hardship and mental tension; in the end$$$ you will spend your whole life pointlessly entangled in petty obligations. The day is ending$$$ the way is long; my life already begins to stumble on its journey. The time has come to abandon all ties. I shall not keep promises$$$ nor consider decorum. Let anyone who cannot understand my feelings feel free to call me mad$$$ let him think I am out of my senses$$$ that I am devoid of human warmth. Abuse will not bother me; I shall not listen if praised.